This post is in response to Katie (of FatGirl, PHD) call to write a letter to your body. I read hers and I felt that I needed to do it. To start to learn to love my body and accept it for what it is . . . mine.
I have three things to say; thank you and I’m sorry and we’re awesome!
Thank you body, it’s not something I say enough, or even at all some times. But seriously, you and me, we’ve got through 26 glorious years together, and not all of them have been easy, but you know what . . . we’re still going strong, maybe even stronger than we think (OK, than I think!). We’ve had our ups (remember when you let me skate a marathon?) and we’ve had our downs (you remember that broken coccyx?), we’ve been through really rough patches (remember all the times in hospital?) and we’ve been through insanely happy patches (remember when we laid on the beach and watched the stars?). But throughout all of those, you’ve not given up on me body, you’ve groaned, you’ve told me to ease off and you’ve warned me when you felt like giving up, but you’re still here. You and me, we make a pretty good pair and I don’t say thank you enough and I definitely don’t appreciate you enough. So here’s a big fat thank you, I couldn’t do it without you!
I’m sorry, for not appreciating everything you do for me and for not stopping to see just how much you mean to me. I’m sorry for pumping you full of crap, I’m sorry for letting you get this far. I’m sorry for not treating you like the body you deserve to be treated like. I’m sorry for putting too much stress and strain on you. I’m sorry for not listening to you when you tell me I’m doing something wrong, or when you tell me that really all we need is a couple of days down time. I’m sorry for breaking you so often and putting you through various operations and procedures. Most of all though, I’m sorry that it’s taken 26 years for me to work out that I need to do something about this, I’m sorry that I’ve put you through years of yo-yo dieting and quick fixes and not worked out that all I need is a healthier lifestyle years ago!
But you know what, you and me, we’re awesome, and all that awesomeness, that deserves to be shouted from the rooftops. So from now on I’m going to stop with the negative words and the negative thoughts. I’m going to celebrate you and revel in how you change, adapt and thrive, even when I don’t pay attention to you! I’m going to focus on you, because you deserve some “me” time and you deserve to have the best. I’m going to stop putting all the crap in you (apart from birthdays and Christmas and Easter and when I just have to have chocolate!), I’m going to start giving you some regular exercise, some 6am swims and 6pm tap dance classes, I’m going to start listening to you when you tell me I need a break. But most of all, I’m going to tell everyone how awesome you are, because I know that when we work together we can be awesome together!
So here’s to a new beginning, to healthier changes, both physically and mentally. Here’s the deal body; I’ll appreciate you more and look after you more and all you have to do let me know that you’re hearing my tries. I think that’s a fair deal and next time we have this little chat . . . maybe we’ll have some different words to say. We’ll have different goals and we’ll have different times to reflect back on. So let’s kick some arse and start loving each other!
I love you body and I always will.